Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Love Edward Cullen
Saw "Twilight" Today, twice, loved the movie, and the book, going to see again next week, miss his marble hands and cold chilly face, and that glare.... from his corner of the eye, yes, his pale skin and dazzling glare make me dream...that cool feeling...............
Sunday, November 23, 2008
High School Drop-out (Down the Rabbit Hole)
“ How far down the rabbit hole do you want to go?”
Everything I do in my life is unexpected, that’s my mother said. Like I dropped from high school, one year and half later. Everyone was shocked, they thought I was crazy. But I knew I made the right decision. The school life was boring and tedious, it killed my dreams and creativity, I just had to let it go. Not because I was stupid, had bad scores, it’s because I was a rebel. I wanted something different. I guess I listened to Pin Floyd too much. Yes, teacher, leave the kids alone. I never thought the regular education system would make me a lavished tree, I must create the life of my own. I mean general education system kills. It makes us like machines, it oppresses our nature and dreams. I never wanted to go to college. Go to college so I can find a job, make money? And then get married, have kids, and die, that’s it, God, that scary. I don’t want all those papers. Tom Cruise did not go to college, and now he is on the driver seat of his life. You definitely don’t need to go to a school to be a decent man. You can learn from anywhere, you can learn from life, you can learn from nature, you can learn from movies, music, and art. You can learn from a tree, you can learn from the people you know or people you don’t know, you can’t learn from a book, You can educate yourself, if you desire to.
Every time when I think about how the students programmed, it makes my heart ache. I can’t imagine myself sit in the classroom all day and can’t learn a damn thing. I can learn from the society, from mother earth. I would rather go to beach than going to class. No wonder a lot of high school drops in California and a lot of kids skipping the class. I feel them. Whenever I saw the movie Ferris Bueller’s Day off. I laugh. Yes, teacher, leave the kids alone. Everyone wants to go to college cause they want to find a good job, so they can make a lot of money, nothing else. Just talk to your neighbor, ask the kid why he wants to go to college, he would probably tell you he wants to be a doctor or lawyer, and you asked them why they want to a doctor or lawyer, they say they will make money. And if you ask them why they make money, they would tell you the teacher or the parent told so. It’s sad. I met a boy, nine years old, in the farmer’s market in Hollywood, I asked him what he wants to do when he grows up, he said he wants to be a doctor, I asked him why, he said doctors make a lot of money, “Who told you all these? “ My Mom.” He said.
Money? It’s never important for me. We’re here to make a life, to make miracle happen, to do something spectacular. I just feel sad whenever I see a little kid talking about money, boy, that just upsets me, young people, kids, we should have big dreams, like changing the world, unfortunately I don’t hear those no more. You just ask all the kids now, all they can tell you is to become a lawyer or a goddamn doctor or a glorious
computer geek so they can blow their life away. Boy, it was just so depressing, I’m telling you. I wanted to change the world when I was nine years old.
Anyhow, after I dropped high school, a lot of friends left me alone. I was not sad, I was happy, finally I was released. I don’t think school will be the best solution for me, plus I was from a poor village, I felt totally oppressed in a city school with all those rich kids. I was so sick and tried of them. I swear God you can’t even have a conversation wit them, if you ask them what they want to do with lives, they say, making money, finding a good job, or buy a Ferrari. If you ask them why they want to study computer, they say it’s practical, and pays well. I was an idealistic, certainly I was. So I was very alone, I did not have many friends. I wanted to do what the most kid don’t. I wanted to break through. So I quit the school, a year and half later, I was 11 years old, actually eleven and half.
My parents were always out of the control of my life, my grandma was upset about I was going to school at first place. I had not talked to her since. I thought I must be responsible for my own life, and I must know what I want. And I knew exactly what I want. I wanted to go to America. If you really want to know why I dropped from High school, I can tell you. I did not like the teachers and the classmates. I did not fit in, even though I did pretty good in school and got As. But I certainly was one of a kind. So I must be OUT. And I can tell you two reasons why they don’t like me. First, I’m from a poor village, second, I’m just too damn good. They are jealous. Maybe also because I was too young, everything about me was ‘wrong’ to them…I did not fit in that school society, everything about me was not “right”, what is right and wrong anyway?! I said, fuck it, I’m going to be on my way this time, but you tell me, how many times I did not go my way?!
So, I went to see the president of the school. I told him I want to quit. The same guy who interviewed me and gave me the green light. He was very sad. He said he would love it if I can stay. “You are very talented. It would be the school’s loss if you quit.” That’s all he said. Mr. Dean is a nice guy, “I have no choice, sir.” I looked into his eyes, I saw some kind of loss, I don’t know what it was. I said good-bye to my friend in this prestigious school in the North West of China. “No matter where you go, what you do Niki, I know you will accomplish what most people can’t. You are special.” Yes, I was special. Even though I did not like the whole school but he was an exception. I guess that’s why he accepted me in the first place. He wasn’t stereotyped, he likes students who are different, who has personality and talent. He likes students who has courage. You can imagine how an eleven year old deals with her life in such a rebellious way. But I did anyway. I was so stubborn, and that stubbornness scared me.
---From the book "My Love For You, Tom Cruise -- A Desperate Chinese Girl's Confession." By Niki Yan 2008 It's on LULU.com & Amazon.
Everything I do in my life is unexpected, that’s my mother said. Like I dropped from high school, one year and half later. Everyone was shocked, they thought I was crazy. But I knew I made the right decision. The school life was boring and tedious, it killed my dreams and creativity, I just had to let it go. Not because I was stupid, had bad scores, it’s because I was a rebel. I wanted something different. I guess I listened to Pin Floyd too much. Yes, teacher, leave the kids alone. I never thought the regular education system would make me a lavished tree, I must create the life of my own. I mean general education system kills. It makes us like machines, it oppresses our nature and dreams. I never wanted to go to college. Go to college so I can find a job, make money? And then get married, have kids, and die, that’s it, God, that scary. I don’t want all those papers. Tom Cruise did not go to college, and now he is on the driver seat of his life. You definitely don’t need to go to a school to be a decent man. You can learn from anywhere, you can learn from life, you can learn from nature, you can learn from movies, music, and art. You can learn from a tree, you can learn from the people you know or people you don’t know, you can’t learn from a book, You can educate yourself, if you desire to.
Every time when I think about how the students programmed, it makes my heart ache. I can’t imagine myself sit in the classroom all day and can’t learn a damn thing. I can learn from the society, from mother earth. I would rather go to beach than going to class. No wonder a lot of high school drops in California and a lot of kids skipping the class. I feel them. Whenever I saw the movie Ferris Bueller’s Day off. I laugh. Yes, teacher, leave the kids alone. Everyone wants to go to college cause they want to find a good job, so they can make a lot of money, nothing else. Just talk to your neighbor, ask the kid why he wants to go to college, he would probably tell you he wants to be a doctor or lawyer, and you asked them why they want to a doctor or lawyer, they say they will make money. And if you ask them why they make money, they would tell you the teacher or the parent told so. It’s sad. I met a boy, nine years old, in the farmer’s market in Hollywood, I asked him what he wants to do when he grows up, he said he wants to be a doctor, I asked him why, he said doctors make a lot of money, “Who told you all these? “ My Mom.” He said.
Money? It’s never important for me. We’re here to make a life, to make miracle happen, to do something spectacular. I just feel sad whenever I see a little kid talking about money, boy, that just upsets me, young people, kids, we should have big dreams, like changing the world, unfortunately I don’t hear those no more. You just ask all the kids now, all they can tell you is to become a lawyer or a goddamn doctor or a glorious
computer geek so they can blow their life away. Boy, it was just so depressing, I’m telling you. I wanted to change the world when I was nine years old.
Anyhow, after I dropped high school, a lot of friends left me alone. I was not sad, I was happy, finally I was released. I don’t think school will be the best solution for me, plus I was from a poor village, I felt totally oppressed in a city school with all those rich kids. I was so sick and tried of them. I swear God you can’t even have a conversation wit them, if you ask them what they want to do with lives, they say, making money, finding a good job, or buy a Ferrari. If you ask them why they want to study computer, they say it’s practical, and pays well. I was an idealistic, certainly I was. So I was very alone, I did not have many friends. I wanted to do what the most kid don’t. I wanted to break through. So I quit the school, a year and half later, I was 11 years old, actually eleven and half.
My parents were always out of the control of my life, my grandma was upset about I was going to school at first place. I had not talked to her since. I thought I must be responsible for my own life, and I must know what I want. And I knew exactly what I want. I wanted to go to America. If you really want to know why I dropped from High school, I can tell you. I did not like the teachers and the classmates. I did not fit in, even though I did pretty good in school and got As. But I certainly was one of a kind. So I must be OUT. And I can tell you two reasons why they don’t like me. First, I’m from a poor village, second, I’m just too damn good. They are jealous. Maybe also because I was too young, everything about me was ‘wrong’ to them…I did not fit in that school society, everything about me was not “right”, what is right and wrong anyway?! I said, fuck it, I’m going to be on my way this time, but you tell me, how many times I did not go my way?!
So, I went to see the president of the school. I told him I want to quit. The same guy who interviewed me and gave me the green light. He was very sad. He said he would love it if I can stay. “You are very talented. It would be the school’s loss if you quit.” That’s all he said. Mr. Dean is a nice guy, “I have no choice, sir.” I looked into his eyes, I saw some kind of loss, I don’t know what it was. I said good-bye to my friend in this prestigious school in the North West of China. “No matter where you go, what you do Niki, I know you will accomplish what most people can’t. You are special.” Yes, I was special. Even though I did not like the whole school but he was an exception. I guess that’s why he accepted me in the first place. He wasn’t stereotyped, he likes students who are different, who has personality and talent. He likes students who has courage. You can imagine how an eleven year old deals with her life in such a rebellious way. But I did anyway. I was so stubborn, and that stubbornness scared me.
---From the book "My Love For You, Tom Cruise -- A Desperate Chinese Girl's Confession." By Niki Yan 2008 It's on LULU.com & Amazon.
A movie changes the WORLD.
the movie is called "Taare Zameen Par",( Little stars on earth) directed & starred by Aamir Khan. This movie is a WAKE-UP call for humanity.It is the ONLY movie I have watched in theater for 20 times in a row. Yes, I saw this film in downtown LA a year ago, this film came out Nov. last year, & only released in a few asian * indian theaters in the US, well, I heard it might be released in the US wide, well, I hope so, cause this is the film you want to see if u r a human being...
( Flawless, the PUREST human experience...it's liberating every single human being on this planet! Yes, it has the power, here is a review I wrote a year ago)
MOVIE MUST SEE!!!!!!!
“Taare Zameen Par” (” Every Child is Special”)— the most beautiful movie I have ever seen, Now palying. Everyone on this Planet MUST see it…I mean everyone… This film is going to change the world, it’s going to change your life; You will FIND yourself there…You will know WHO YOU REALLY ARE!!! Yes, You are LOVE, & you are so LOVED! ALL WE NEED IS LOVE. LOVE is the MOST Powerful thing in life. The perfect beauty in the movie makes a strong man CRY…cause it tells you what’s really important in life, a longing SOUL can find beauty everywhere, a drop of tear can melt the iceberg. I watched the movie 10 times! I saw 80 years old Ladies cried, I saw 8 years boys cried, I saw couples, parents, kids, students cried, it was amazing everyone was sobbing in the theater, NOT because of sadness, because of JOY! Because of being DEEPLY touched by the REAL beauty of LIFE, by the LOVE, by the Heart, by the sky high will, and universal WIDE spirit…What a fantastic Movie! In the last 30 years of my life, this one hit me like never before…I feel it’s my mission & responsibility, also joy & happiness to let everyone to know about this film….This Movie is TOO GOOD to NOT to share with YOU my friends! And you MUST Watch it in theater! GO SEE it NOW! It’s ONLY in theater for a few MORE days!!!!! This Movie is about LOVE, DREAM & HOPE. It’s about being yourself. It’s about being FREE, it’s about living your life in the most valuable way. It’s about the TRUTH that everyone MUST learn. It’s spiritual, moving and touching. It’s about this boy’s journey from the dark to the light. I was deeply touched, I saw hope & LOVE, I saw myself…Anyone can relate. We all have a dream. We all have a way to see the world, and a way to live our life. And that is so special. Sometime we forget it because our heart is covered with dust, now you can truly find out WHO you are after you see the movie. You can truly understand what you are all about. It will enlighten your soul, and change your LIFE from inside and out. Yes, YOU ARE LOVE. You are JOY! You are infinite, You have the FULL-potential, You can do anything & everything you want to do. You are NOT alone. Just follow YOUR heart, you will find the way home, yes, you are FREE, Yes, you are the Angel, yes, you are breathing the most beautiful essence we call LIFE, yes, heaven is on earth, welcome Home my friends. Take a deep breath, fly HIGH, ABOVE the SKY… The movie is PURE & delightful. It’s for ALL AGES. It’s deep and spiritual, it carries the MOST important message for this WORLD, which is LOVE, ONLY LOVE can heal disease, ONLY LOVE can MOVE mountains. ONLY LOVE can turn lead to Gold. ONLY LOVE. The Music is the BEST, it’s like cherry on the cake, makes the whole movie a fantastic emotional & spiritual JOURNEY! What a Masterpiece! Every single scene is perfect, The movie is flawless as a piece of art, but it’s MORE than a MOVIE; it’s a Hopeful beautiful world everyone’s dying to live in…… This Movie is from India. But it’s NOT a traditional Indian Movie, It’s Universal, It’s Spectacular! It’s A Special Movie, when the first time I saw the poster in the theater, I did NOT pay any attention, first, the Indian title bothered me, since it looked foreign & strange to me, (I hate to read subtitles!) plus the poster looked absolutely boring…But I am thankful I gave myself a chance to see it when a friend recommended. The film runs through like crystal water, YOU DON’T have to read the subtitles, just feel & see….& You will be amazed. WOW, what a journey I thought. after I saw the movie, my whole world turned upside down…I knew my life was about to change. And it did. SO here I am, speaking to you NOW, my friend. This MOVIE changed the way I see my life and the world. I feel happy, grateful and absolutely wonderful! YOU MUST SEE IT !! It’s for EVERYONE. Bring your kids, your mom, dad, & grandparents! And, Do yourself a favor, DO NOT READ anything on the internet about the MOVIE, JUST go SEE IT
go to Youtube see this clip, this is my favorite scene, also song from the movie...
All the music in this film are beyond amazing, & the whole story, yes, you MUST watch it from the beginning to the end, it's my life time desire to work with artist like Aamir Khan, that's why I decided to NOT sell my SOUL to Hollywood; It's my LIFE time desire to make a film matters like this so the whole universe benifits, solute to Aamor Khan, I love you, and I am so glad we still have so mant great artists out there to make a difference, thank you, and yes, let's ROLL!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UhfJJ6SkWyM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLF6vVM-wWk
( Flawless, the PUREST human experience...it's liberating every single human being on this planet! Yes, it has the power, here is a review I wrote a year ago)
MOVIE MUST SEE!!!!!!!
“Taare Zameen Par” (” Every Child is Special”)— the most beautiful movie I have ever seen, Now palying. Everyone on this Planet MUST see it…I mean everyone… This film is going to change the world, it’s going to change your life; You will FIND yourself there…You will know WHO YOU REALLY ARE!!! Yes, You are LOVE, & you are so LOVED! ALL WE NEED IS LOVE. LOVE is the MOST Powerful thing in life. The perfect beauty in the movie makes a strong man CRY…cause it tells you what’s really important in life, a longing SOUL can find beauty everywhere, a drop of tear can melt the iceberg. I watched the movie 10 times! I saw 80 years old Ladies cried, I saw 8 years boys cried, I saw couples, parents, kids, students cried, it was amazing everyone was sobbing in the theater, NOT because of sadness, because of JOY! Because of being DEEPLY touched by the REAL beauty of LIFE, by the LOVE, by the Heart, by the sky high will, and universal WIDE spirit…What a fantastic Movie! In the last 30 years of my life, this one hit me like never before…I feel it’s my mission & responsibility, also joy & happiness to let everyone to know about this film….This Movie is TOO GOOD to NOT to share with YOU my friends! And you MUST Watch it in theater! GO SEE it NOW! It’s ONLY in theater for a few MORE days!!!!! This Movie is about LOVE, DREAM & HOPE. It’s about being yourself. It’s about being FREE, it’s about living your life in the most valuable way. It’s about the TRUTH that everyone MUST learn. It’s spiritual, moving and touching. It’s about this boy’s journey from the dark to the light. I was deeply touched, I saw hope & LOVE, I saw myself…Anyone can relate. We all have a dream. We all have a way to see the world, and a way to live our life. And that is so special. Sometime we forget it because our heart is covered with dust, now you can truly find out WHO you are after you see the movie. You can truly understand what you are all about. It will enlighten your soul, and change your LIFE from inside and out. Yes, YOU ARE LOVE. You are JOY! You are infinite, You have the FULL-potential, You can do anything & everything you want to do. You are NOT alone. Just follow YOUR heart, you will find the way home, yes, you are FREE, Yes, you are the Angel, yes, you are breathing the most beautiful essence we call LIFE, yes, heaven is on earth, welcome Home my friends. Take a deep breath, fly HIGH, ABOVE the SKY… The movie is PURE & delightful. It’s for ALL AGES. It’s deep and spiritual, it carries the MOST important message for this WORLD, which is LOVE, ONLY LOVE can heal disease, ONLY LOVE can MOVE mountains. ONLY LOVE can turn lead to Gold. ONLY LOVE. The Music is the BEST, it’s like cherry on the cake, makes the whole movie a fantastic emotional & spiritual JOURNEY! What a Masterpiece! Every single scene is perfect, The movie is flawless as a piece of art, but it’s MORE than a MOVIE; it’s a Hopeful beautiful world everyone’s dying to live in…… This Movie is from India. But it’s NOT a traditional Indian Movie, It’s Universal, It’s Spectacular! It’s A Special Movie, when the first time I saw the poster in the theater, I did NOT pay any attention, first, the Indian title bothered me, since it looked foreign & strange to me, (I hate to read subtitles!) plus the poster looked absolutely boring…But I am thankful I gave myself a chance to see it when a friend recommended. The film runs through like crystal water, YOU DON’T have to read the subtitles, just feel & see….& You will be amazed. WOW, what a journey I thought. after I saw the movie, my whole world turned upside down…I knew my life was about to change. And it did. SO here I am, speaking to you NOW, my friend. This MOVIE changed the way I see my life and the world. I feel happy, grateful and absolutely wonderful! YOU MUST SEE IT !! It’s for EVERYONE. Bring your kids, your mom, dad, & grandparents! And, Do yourself a favor, DO NOT READ anything on the internet about the MOVIE, JUST go SEE IT
go to Youtube see this clip, this is my favorite scene, also song from the movie...
All the music in this film are beyond amazing, & the whole story, yes, you MUST watch it from the beginning to the end, it's my life time desire to work with artist like Aamir Khan, that's why I decided to NOT sell my SOUL to Hollywood; It's my LIFE time desire to make a film matters like this so the whole universe benifits, solute to Aamor Khan, I love you, and I am so glad we still have so mant great artists out there to make a difference, thank you, and yes, let's ROLL!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UhfJJ6SkWyM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLF6vVM-wWk
Friday, November 21, 2008
You tell me
You tell me go right I will go right
You tell me go left I will go left
You tell me cry I will cry
You tell me wash my face I will wash my face
life already lost its meaning
the lost rose burning in the ashes
You tell me cry
I will cry
you tell me die
I will die
you tell me never come back
I will never come back
I do exactly what you tell me to do
cause
my life is in the ashes
cause my life is falling like a building
collapses
You tell me go right
I will go right
you tell me go left
I will go left
I don't say No
I don't resist
I just do whatever you tell me.
You tell me to eat
I will eat
You tell me go outside
I will go outside
I am a woman without her wings
I am a woman lost her feet
You tell me when to eat
You tell me when to sleep
You tell me
You tell me when the sun is up when the sun is down
when I’m running in the rain like a child.
You tell me
You hurt me
You destroyed me
You broke me
You tell me go left I will go left
You tell me cry I will cry
You tell me wash my face I will wash my face
life already lost its meaning
the lost rose burning in the ashes
You tell me cry
I will cry
you tell me die
I will die
you tell me never come back
I will never come back
I do exactly what you tell me to do
cause
my life is in the ashes
cause my life is falling like a building
collapses
You tell me go right
I will go right
you tell me go left
I will go left
I don't say No
I don't resist
I just do whatever you tell me.
You tell me to eat
I will eat
You tell me go outside
I will go outside
I am a woman without her wings
I am a woman lost her feet
You tell me when to eat
You tell me when to sleep
You tell me
You tell me when the sun is up when the sun is down
when I’m running in the rain like a child.
You tell me
You hurt me
You destroyed me
You broke me
I MISS YOU
I miss you, and this is an ancient feeling
I miss you
Like I miss myself
I miss you cause the sun blind my eyes and the wind banished my dreams
I miss you.
I miss you cause my heart hanging over your shadow, and the rain washing down to my bones
I saw myself flying like an angel
I miss you.
at the edge the shore, at the edge of the bubbles
I saw my heart hanging ( without longing) just empty
It disappears in a life time ( and darling, how long is too long?
how long is forever, and how long it takes to climb a mountain, and how long is the way to death and how long to reach my destiny?)
I miss you when the day comes
I miss you when the night comes
I miss you when the sun disappears
I mss you when the heaven coming to earth and we fly away
I miss you cause I lost my vision I miss you cause I can’t see myself, the wings are broken and the feet are vanished
to the horizon.
I miss you and I’m counting the time between two bubbles. ( Darling, how long to comb your hair? and how long is forever?)
The sky is blue, the wall is cold
The air shattering between my toes
I miss you, like I miss a foreign fossil
The ice is breaking, the darkness emerges into my lip, as a whole,
and yes, I miss YOU!
( Where am I going from here?
Darling, darling, you know the answer!
Where are we going from here??)
I miss you.
The air is cold, the voice soars
And I miss you
I miss you like I miss a lost soul
I miss you like I miss the dazzling light on my own roof,
I miss you like I miss the light at night--shines on my tear—And, yes, that’s the last drop.
I miss you cause I see your finger tips and the snow lotus
I saw my own tears falling down on my own
finger tip ( and I recognized… that is YOU!)
I miss you & this is an ancient feeling
I’m sitting here in my own destiny
I’m sitting in my own destiny
And
MISSING
YOU.
( Yes, darling, you know the fear will never go)
I miss you
Like I miss myself
I miss you cause the sun blind my eyes and the wind banished my dreams
I miss you.
I miss you cause my heart hanging over your shadow, and the rain washing down to my bones
I saw myself flying like an angel
I miss you.
at the edge the shore, at the edge of the bubbles
I saw my heart hanging ( without longing) just empty
It disappears in a life time ( and darling, how long is too long?
how long is forever, and how long it takes to climb a mountain, and how long is the way to death and how long to reach my destiny?)
I miss you when the day comes
I miss you when the night comes
I miss you when the sun disappears
I mss you when the heaven coming to earth and we fly away
I miss you cause I lost my vision I miss you cause I can’t see myself, the wings are broken and the feet are vanished
to the horizon.
I miss you and I’m counting the time between two bubbles. ( Darling, how long to comb your hair? and how long is forever?)
The sky is blue, the wall is cold
The air shattering between my toes
I miss you, like I miss a foreign fossil
The ice is breaking, the darkness emerges into my lip, as a whole,
and yes, I miss YOU!
( Where am I going from here?
Darling, darling, you know the answer!
Where are we going from here??)
I miss you.
The air is cold, the voice soars
And I miss you
I miss you like I miss a lost soul
I miss you like I miss the dazzling light on my own roof,
I miss you like I miss the light at night--shines on my tear—And, yes, that’s the last drop.
I miss you cause I see your finger tips and the snow lotus
I saw my own tears falling down on my own
finger tip ( and I recognized… that is YOU!)
I miss you & this is an ancient feeling
I’m sitting here in my own destiny
I’m sitting in my own destiny
And
MISSING
YOU.
( Yes, darling, you know the fear will never go)
I Saw Your SOUL
I dreamed all my life, I danced with my wings like an angle
I came to the city looking for you
I found you in the corner shaking like a child
You touched my soul
you ruined my life
you loved me
deeply,
you fucked me
crazily
we lived in that small dark room
for the rest of our lives
baby
I'm singing this song
because of you
I'm singing this song
because I saw your soul
I dig the gold
I found my heart
I found myself lying on the ground
for a reason I can never reach
this is something called crazy
this is something called fantasy
I dropped my tears
I dropped my tears again in this fucking city called
The Angeles
I failed
I stood up
I wiped my tears
I cleaned my blood
I love to fuck
I love to create a world I call LOVE
If you ask me why
The rain dropped on your cheek,
the train left me 30 years ago,
the smile and the little house we shared our dreams
You ask me why...
The strange boy passing by
His eyes full of light
If you ask me why,
There is no reason why I said good bye,
If you ask me why
The strange boy’s tears stuck
In my chest,
I standing in the middle of the
dark
I laughed, I cried,
I cried, I laughed,
If you ask me why
I never came back.
Just woke up from the dust
just pretend like a sixteen year old
just put my pillow on the right
just washed my dished with all the sour and bitterness
spicy and delusion,
fantasy and imagination
I'm here for a reason
Just came back from the battle field
baby, if you ask me why I never came back...
If you ask me why,
Let me open my eye
Show you all my sorrows and strength
If you ask me why,
let me open my eye
I came to the city looking for you
I found you in the corner shaking like a child
You touched my soul
you ruined my life
you loved me
deeply,
you fucked me
crazily
we lived in that small dark room
for the rest of our lives
baby
I'm singing this song
because of you
I'm singing this song
because I saw your soul
I dig the gold
I found my heart
I found myself lying on the ground
for a reason I can never reach
this is something called crazy
this is something called fantasy
I dropped my tears
I dropped my tears again in this fucking city called
The Angeles
I failed
I stood up
I wiped my tears
I cleaned my blood
I love to fuck
I love to create a world I call LOVE
If you ask me why
The rain dropped on your cheek,
the train left me 30 years ago,
the smile and the little house we shared our dreams
You ask me why...
The strange boy passing by
His eyes full of light
If you ask me why,
There is no reason why I said good bye,
If you ask me why
The strange boy’s tears stuck
In my chest,
I standing in the middle of the
dark
I laughed, I cried,
I cried, I laughed,
If you ask me why
I never came back.
Just woke up from the dust
just pretend like a sixteen year old
just put my pillow on the right
just washed my dished with all the sour and bitterness
spicy and delusion,
fantasy and imagination
I'm here for a reason
Just came back from the battle field
baby, if you ask me why I never came back...
If you ask me why,
Let me open my eye
Show you all my sorrows and strength
If you ask me why,
let me open my eye
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